Days without him ...

Assalamualaikum .. n A good day to everyone ...

I can't help it .. eventho i know i must be strong enough ..

Days without atok .. which i used to have before ...

Family keep telling me, even Adah, my 10 years old cousin know how to accept 'taqdir'

"takpelah.. Allah lebih sayang arwah tok .. bawak bersabarlah ye? kitaorang kat sini pun sedih jugak "

It's ok if i distracted myself from thinking deep about this ...

I have Opah .. who needs full attention , i can say she's in bed-ridden state ...

She's not strong to hold herself , to even stand by herself , to go to toilet ..

The days when tok n opah in their house ,

Me myself felt veryyyy sad n sympathy n empathy ,

'If only i can stay here with tok & opah together ' ,

I can help better much better than i used to before ,

when i went back to kampung ...

Usually there , tok will be my companion , i can say that ...

because opah will just sleep on her bed , n only wake up to eat (if someone ask her to) or she asked for drinks ...

The best experience i have ever had (i can smile now when thinking about the happy moment with him) ....

When i did some cleaning & 'clearance' from the fridge ,

Ternampak terung yg agak dah lama , tapi takdelah busuk ..

Dan tangan yg gatal ini pun , buang ....

Ke dalam tempat pembuangan smpah blkang umah

[ tanah yg dikorek utk buat lobang yg dalam ]

then, tok checked his fridge ,

'nadaaaaa , mane terung tok tu , nada? '

"errr , terung??! buang la tok , sbb nampak dah tak elok"

[tok sengih2 - nmpak giginye yg dah berapa penuh tu ]

'aiii, ak nok mbuat benih tu , nak nanam tu'

"erk! tok! maaf tokk ..... kyong idok tau"

'tak ngape2 ...." then agak lama selepas itu, nampak tok ke belakang tmpat tu ,

n search for 'benih' terung tu .. hati sayuuu , tok orgnya jimat , tak membazir ... itu pengajaran paling terkesan dalam hidupku ..

Kg Jalan Badak , Jeliang ... Kuala Kangsar

Kebun tok , sebab tok rajin berkebun , baik utk kesihatan beliau

thanks imah, adele gambo nak nyimpan2

menghijau, cantik tanaman tok

terung =="